Some days I feel like a failure
Like everything I do,
I do it wrong
If I do one thing
There was something else
I should have done first
Or I should have done it better
Or it turned out disastrous
And all I can do is wonder
Why I always fail
Why can’t I do anything right?
Deep down I know I don’t always fail
But on those days
I can’t remember not failing
I can’t remember success
All I know is
I failed again
I remember friendships I failed
Friends I failed
Failing my family
Failing myself
And my heart feels ready
To burst
Those days all I want
Is someone to say
“You’re not a failure” and
“I love you”
Not expecting me to change
And love me even though
Sometimes I do fail
On those days what I need
Is someone to wrap me in their arms
And hold me tight
Telling me it’ll be ok
And love me even though
I feel like a failure
And not just out of sympathy
But really mean it
Accepting me as I am
And loving me anyway
If only someone would do that
I think I would realize
I must not be a complete failure
Because if I was
I wouldn’t be so incredibly lucky
To have someone care that much
Even when I do fail
I think if I knew
I was loved like that
And someone let me know it
On my bad days, when I fail
I would have less days
When I feel like a failure
written June 22, 2006
I love the casual natural tone through this Cindy, but I hope you know that you are loved and people are just sometimes too unaware or unobservant to know when to wrap you up and tell you it's true, but it is. I wish I was in Provo to come tell you right now in person, but just remember...
ReplyDelete1. You are not "A" failure... far from really
2. When you feel like you might have failed something (note, not you being a failure) just try to remember that it is a gauge for success and will show you what you are made of in the end. We can't live our lives regretting our mistakes or worried about our failures because it makes us stronger and allows us to will determination. I love you friend. Hang in there.