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Happy birthday to me! Happy birthday to me! Happy birthday dear me. Happy birthday to me!

My birthday has come and gone. One year older and wiser too. At least that's what the song says. I don't know that i'm any wiser simply because my birthday was a couple days ago. I do feel i am wiser this year than i was last year, but it has nothing to do with age and everything to do with current circumstances. My mom's cancer is a trial which has already shaped my perspective on life. I am rather more at peace with letting things take their own course. I have no clue what's coming tomorrow, much less next year. Who am i to try to manipulate life my way? Isn't that God's job? I really have no control over what's ahead. All I have control over is my response to the present. So I'll choose to live in happiness and joy instead of focusing on the negative.
I don't know if my mom will be one of the lucky ones who will make it through as a survivor.